Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Father's thoughts.

Once in a great while I like to get on and leave a post or two with a random thought or a funny story, but today I thought I would give my thoughts as a future father and what has been going through my mind over the past 18 weeks.
Before I get into that though I want to let everyone know that I have the most amazing wife anyone could ever ask for. She make me a better person everyday and I have learned more from her than she will ever know. I am so excited to spend the rest of my life waking up next to her knowing that we will be together for all of time and eternity. I could say I love you to her every second of the day and it would still not be enough times to really show her how much I love her. In a lame movie quote sort of way “she completes me.”
She is going to make the best mother any child could ask for. I know this for many reasons, but the main reason is she is just like her mom. Unfortunately I was never able to meet Nicole’s mother in person, but I have felt her love and her presence everyday of our marriage and I know that Nicole is going to be just like her. And even though I have never been able to thank Nicole’s mother in person for her amazing daughter I say it in my prayers everyday knowing that she hears it. Never in my life could I have dreamed that I would end up with someone so special and so amazing. She really is my everything.
And now to the main event.
I should start my future father thoughts off with the truth. I am literally scared to death about being a father. What do I do when they start crying? How do I change a diaper? Will they love me? How will I know what they need? And will I be a good dad? These are just a few of the thousands of questions that go through my head on a daily basis. Do I know the answers to these questions? NO! Will I know the answers by the time they get here? I might know the diaper questions, but the others probably not. I don’t think that anyone can really tell you how to be a good father, but I am lucky to have two amazing examples in my life of how to be a good father from both my own father and my father-in-law. Both of whom have taught me so many things in my life about so much.
I know this is starting to sound kind of like a soap opera so I will add one last thought and then I will be done.
Even though I am scared out of my mind to be a dad, I have never been more excited in my entire life. I cannot wait for the first time I get to hold them. I cannot wait for the first time to feed them. And even though a lot of people might disagree I am even excited for the first time I get to change their diapers, providing I know how and I don’t mess something up. Pretty much I am excited for everything that comes from being a parent. I honestly cannot wait to be a father.

1 comment:

Jenn said...

Scott! That was amazing, I almost cried. Just the fact that you worry about those things means that you will be a GREAT dad, and don't you worry, it will come naturally. The first few days are definitely a little scary and you wonder "why did God (or me for that matter) think I was ready for this?" But then it all seems to sort of fall into place and you find yourself in the simplest moments thinking I LOVE MY LIFE. The thing I always kept telling myself is "she still thinks you're the best parent in the world because she doesn't know any different and is learning right along with you" :D Bottom line: You guys will do great!!